Making Life My Own
On this page I will share with you my ideas on how to redefine life, changing the game so that life becomes something worthwhile. No quiet desperation, instead life lived out loud.
Lifehack: Life as an Infinite Game
Infinite games, on the other hand, do not have a knowable beginning or ending. They are played with the goal of continuing play and a purpose of bringing more players into the game. An infinite game continues play, for sake of play. If the game is approaching resolution because of the rules of play, the rules must be changed to allow continued play. The rules exist to ensure the game is infinite. The only known example is life. Beginning to participate in an infinite game may be involuntary, in that it doesn't require conscious thought. Continuing participation in the current round of game-play is voluntary. "It is an invariable principle of all play, finite and infinite, that whoever plays, plays freely" (from wikipedia)
So there is the concept out there that Attachment is the source of suffering. Makes sense. We take shit waaay to seriously. From the "game" perspective this is due to people seeing life as a zero-sum, finite game. A game they can and often do lose. How boring. The backdoor to this program of shit is shifting your perspective, and choosing to see life as an infinite game.
When you see life as an Infinite game, no longer does it suck so bad to fail, no longer do you fear competition. Instead, the other players in your game become your co-creators, even people who are playing on the "other side. Negative things just add to the fun, make the game more interesting. You actually start to embrace challenges. You start to dare to shoot for the big goals. You embrace your largest dreams, because seeking your largest dream makes the funnest game.
Choosing to seek life as an Infinite Game changes the way you engage life too. You will be more playful, more enthusiastic. You will smile, because your having fun. And the magical thing about smiles, about fun, is that it's contagious. People around you will smile more. They will loosen up. You will get your way more often because it will be actually fun for people to help you out and participate in your game. You can be spontanious because it's part of the play. You can dance in public. Who cares if you put your feet in the wrong place, you have forever to get better.
Life is an adventure my friends. Go play!
So there is the concept out there that Attachment is the source of suffering. Makes sense. We take shit waaay to seriously. From the "game" perspective this is due to people seeing life as a zero-sum, finite game. A game they can and often do lose. How boring. The backdoor to this program of shit is shifting your perspective, and choosing to see life as an infinite game.
When you see life as an Infinite game, no longer does it suck so bad to fail, no longer do you fear competition. Instead, the other players in your game become your co-creators, even people who are playing on the "other side. Negative things just add to the fun, make the game more interesting. You actually start to embrace challenges. You start to dare to shoot for the big goals. You embrace your largest dreams, because seeking your largest dream makes the funnest game.
Choosing to seek life as an Infinite Game changes the way you engage life too. You will be more playful, more enthusiastic. You will smile, because your having fun. And the magical thing about smiles, about fun, is that it's contagious. People around you will smile more. They will loosen up. You will get your way more often because it will be actually fun for people to help you out and participate in your game. You can be spontanious because it's part of the play. You can dance in public. Who cares if you put your feet in the wrong place, you have forever to get better.
Life is an adventure my friends. Go play!
A Philosophy of Life (a four letter word)
This is my philosophy of life. This is my Path of Freedom. Fuck it. We get lost in our parallel circuits of consciousness, constantly wasting energy over thinking and over feeling. It's called Worry and all it's doing is wasting your time and making you forget how awesome you are.
I'm awesome. Don't agree? Fuck it, I don't care, I'll just keep doing me.
I love to dance, but there in no one on the dance floor, so if I dance, everyone will watch me. Well, fuck it, let's dance!
My dreams are so big and this world such shit, that I don't know if what I want for my life is even possible? Fuck it, I'll just keep trying, keep fighting, until the day I die, and even if I fail, you know what? At least I tried and I had a great time.
I'm ADHD and can't keep focused very long. Fuck it, cuz my ADHD also gives me a huge amount of energy and a fast metabolism. Can't keep up? Thats your own fault. But worry not! for I shall soon lap you and we'll be together again ^.^
Fuck it, is not Fuck everything, or fuck this world, or fuck off. It's a complete affirmation of myself in the face of the world, and all it's fucked up shit. It's not that I don't care, cuz I do. I care a lot, but even still, fuck it. I am going to keep moving, keep fighting, and if you fall, I shall cry, but later, cuz for now I must fight.
Fuck it is the counter to that voice within you that tells you that you can't, that you'll fail. It's not a denial, that voice may or may not be right, but fuck it, gonna do it anyway.
I may not dance well, but I will dance anyways.
I'm awesome. Don't agree? Fuck it, I don't care, I'll just keep doing me.
I love to dance, but there in no one on the dance floor, so if I dance, everyone will watch me. Well, fuck it, let's dance!
My dreams are so big and this world such shit, that I don't know if what I want for my life is even possible? Fuck it, I'll just keep trying, keep fighting, until the day I die, and even if I fail, you know what? At least I tried and I had a great time.
I'm ADHD and can't keep focused very long. Fuck it, cuz my ADHD also gives me a huge amount of energy and a fast metabolism. Can't keep up? Thats your own fault. But worry not! for I shall soon lap you and we'll be together again ^.^
Fuck it, is not Fuck everything, or fuck this world, or fuck off. It's a complete affirmation of myself in the face of the world, and all it's fucked up shit. It's not that I don't care, cuz I do. I care a lot, but even still, fuck it. I am going to keep moving, keep fighting, and if you fall, I shall cry, but later, cuz for now I must fight.
Fuck it is the counter to that voice within you that tells you that you can't, that you'll fail. It's not a denial, that voice may or may not be right, but fuck it, gonna do it anyway.
I may not dance well, but I will dance anyways.
Awesome Dreams
So it's becoming pretty apparent to me that I dream the most awesome dreams in the morning after my alarm goes off. This is not that awesome, because it has led to me developing a habit of staying in bed far longer than I need to. I got shit to do! But these dreams ARE really friggin awesome. So, what to do? Well, based on the pattern stated above, I reach dream nirvana after I fall deeply asleep and then wake up again. So let's see if we can hack this.
Dream Hack
Set alarm for ~3:00 a.m. to allow myself to reach a deep (Delta Wave) sleep state.
Set the buzzer to repeat itself every 30 minutes to an hour.
Anticipated Result: A night full of vivid, semi-lucid dreams of high adventure ending in me waking up well rested in the early mornings.
Dream Hack
Set alarm for ~3:00 a.m. to allow myself to reach a deep (Delta Wave) sleep state.
Set the buzzer to repeat itself every 30 minutes to an hour.
Anticipated Result: A night full of vivid, semi-lucid dreams of high adventure ending in me waking up well rested in the early mornings.